serenity prayer at 2:28 am

god, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

what’s that all about?

one day, god is the old god. some unknown but benevolent male entity. the next it’s actually “goddess” – and the one goddess i can best connect with is hekate. the next day “god” is some vague kind of goodness, made up by all the higher powers in this world.

“grant” – that’s something that i have difficulty with. it makes me think of Q from startrek, an arrogant monarch who may or may not give me something, according to his whims.

serenity. i love that word. i can’t have enough of it. (which may be my problem – if i had true serenity, i would have enough)

the courage to change the things i can??? that’s the funny one. i used to think of myself as someone who loves change, a change agent, oh, i am so cool. until i took the luxury to look at the things i don’t want to look at, the things i don’t want to change. or the things i’m too chicken to change. oops. this part makes me so nervous i’m drawing a blank right now regarding what i should/could change. okay, here is one. there’s some kinds of anger i run away from. — so, yup, i need the courage.

the wisdom to know the difference …hmmm … yeah, i need that, too. and i mean “wisdom”. i often have “information” – like, i know it’s better to go to sleep before i’m so tired my feet get ice cold (like now, for example). but “wisdom” – that’s more than just having the information, isn’t it? it’s something that goes far deeper. it’s knowledge in the head, in the heart, in the bones … maybe even knowledge that compels action …

7 thoughts on “serenity prayer at 2:28 am

  1. Mel

    That is my mantra. It is what lies beneath my entire site.
    I believe that by just being a part of “Priscilla’ Palmer’s Personal Development list obligates each of us to also post this list. You like me (Killeris at “Attitude, the Ultimate Power”) are on this list. If you have already posted it, THANK YOU. If you have not posted it, I am officially putting out a challenge that you add additional sites that fit the theme and post it. This list can be found at: http://mondaymorningpower.blogspot.com/2007/09/personal-development-list-challenge.html

  2. Mel

    That is my mantra. It is what lies beneath my entire site.
    I believe that by just being a part of “Priscilla’ Palmer’s Personal Development list obligates each of us to also post this list. You like me (Killeris at “Attitude, the Ultimate Power”) are on this list. If you have already posted it, THANK YOU. If you have not posted it, I am officially putting out a challenge that you add additional sites that fit the theme and post it. This list can be found at: http://mondaymorningpower.blogspot.com/2007/09/personal-development-list-challenge.html

  3. Wendi

    I’ve always kind of disliked this prayer; I think mostly because I didn’t want to admit there was anything in my life I didn’t have the power to change. The older I get, however, the more I understand the value of surrender. I like the way you broke this all out. Thanks.

  4. Wendi

    I’ve always kind of disliked this prayer; I think mostly because I didn’t want to admit there was anything in my life I didn’t have the power to change. The older I get, however, the more I understand the value of surrender. I like the way you broke this all out. Thanks.

  5. isabella mori

    thanks for the comment, wendi. yes, surrender is something very difficult to understand, especially for us women who grew up being proud that they had done away with surrendering.

    what i am coming to understand is that there is more than one kind of surrender.

    there is surrender that truly does mean giving up, a surrender that has a feeling of devaluation about it. that’s the kind of surrender i don’t want to have much to do with.

    but there is also the kind of surrender that means that i don’t have to do it all by myself, that i can trust, that i don’t have to rely on my little ego all the time.

  6. isabella mori

    thanks for the comment, wendi. yes, surrender is something very difficult to understand, especially for us women who grew up being proud that they had done away with surrendering.

    what i am coming to understand is that there is more than one kind of surrender.

    there is surrender that truly does mean giving up, a surrender that has a feeling of devaluation about it. that’s the kind of surrender i don’t want to have much to do with.

    but there is also the kind of surrender that means that i don’t have to do it all by myself, that i can trust, that i don’t have to rely on my little ego all the time.

  7. Wendi

    >but there is also the kind of surrender that means that i don’t have to do it all by myself, that i can trust, that i don’t have to rely on my little ego all the time.right then. I considered my options, realized I did have some, and then I asked the sky, the water, the sand, the sun, God, the universe – anything! for help.

    Loud and repeatedly. LOL. And if nothing else, that helped me to relax while I was waiting to see what would happen. It actually felt liberating to know that I could affect the situation in some ways, but that I didn’t have total control or total responsibility for the outcome. I could only do what I could do. No more, no less. Whatever was going to happen was mostly beyond my control. It was really quite a revelatory experience.

    Fortunately, my friend started to feel better after a couple of hours and I got her up to the cottage and all was well. Next time the outcome might be different, but I hope I can remember this experience of surrender, and remain available to and in the moment, then, too. Because it wasn’t just the good outcome that was important to me, ultimately, it was the experience and what I learned.

  8. Wendi

    >but there is also the kind of surrender that means that i don’t have to do it all by myself, that i can trust, that i don’t have to rely on my little ego all the time.right then. I considered my options, realized I did have some, and then I asked the sky, the water, the sand, the sun, God, the universe – anything! for help.

    Loud and repeatedly. LOL. And if nothing else, that helped me to relax while I was waiting to see what would happen. It actually felt liberating to know that I could affect the situation in some ways, but that I didn’t have total control or total responsibility for the outcome. I could only do what I could do. No more, no less. Whatever was going to happen was mostly beyond my control. It was really quite a revelatory experience.

    Fortunately, my friend started to feel better after a couple of hours and I got her up to the cottage and all was well. Next time the outcome might be different, but I hope I can remember this experience of surrender, and remain available to and in the moment, then, too. Because it wasn’t just the good outcome that was important to me, ultimately, it was the experience and what I learned.

  9. Wendi

    Sorry, the first part of my (too long) comment got cut off. For the sake of clarity:

    I was in a situation this weekend in which I was totally in over my head. A friend and I were on the beach in a remote area and my friend became quite ill. I wanted to panic, but I didn’t. I gave up the idea of being in total control of the situation, as well as the idea of being totally helpless, and started thinking about what I had to do right then…

  10. Wendi

    Sorry, the first part of my (too long) comment got cut off. For the sake of clarity:

    I was in a situation this weekend in which I was totally in over my head. A friend and I were on the beach in a remote area and my friend became quite ill. I wanted to panic, but I didn’t. I gave up the idea of being in total control of the situation, as well as the idea of being totally helpless, and started thinking about what I had to do right then…

  11. Anonymous

    no pues yo era un mozuelo cuando salia la serie :P, pero recuerdo ke era buna serie habra que ver como viene esta… no hay noticias del regreso del auto increible???

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