carnival of eating disorders on hallowe’en

isabella mori on hallowe'en: a fashion mistakeit’s hallowe’en! i’m busy being a fashion mistake – that’s my costume for this year. this picture gives you a bit of a taste of but it doesn’t show the real nice touches – the smeared rouge, the bags under the eyes, the wool socks over the leopard pyjamas under the fancy black skirt – oh well.

oh, and it’s the last of the month and therefore carnival of eating disorders time! i guess i should get serious.

okay.

(desparately trashing around trying to find a segue)

{giving up; but if you can think of a good segue, let me know, alright?}

i’ll just start now.

body image – a video that will make you cry
in this powerful post, dr. susan gregg talks about the difference between domination and dominion:

society is based on domination. the way our mind thinks is most often based on domination: black and white, right and wrong, good and evil, positive emotions and negative ones. symbolically this is represented as a line. as we deepen our connection with our spirit, with our true nature we move into dominion. symbolically dominion is represented as a sphere.

after explaining this concept a little more, she then posts a video that illustrates her thoughts in a deeply moving way. everyone who has ever had any issues with body image or any other feelings of “otherness” will know what susan is talking about. please visit her post, judgment, domination and the line.

body image – a striking difference between men and women
kelly turner presents the difference between boys and girls at grounded fitness. an excerpt:

it would futile to try and explain that if a girl asked another girl if she was going to try and lose weight to get a guy, without said girl ever mentioning a dissatisfaction with her current weight, that it would be enough to send her into a downward spiral of self hatred, body image issues and gallons and gallons of ben and jerry’s.

body image and anorexia
lola snow has a post about a mirror in a changing room:

the revelation occurred in the middle of the river island changing rooms.
i tried on nine or ten different outfits, on the final pair of jeans (which i actually had to buy because all my other clothes hang off me in various ways liable to get me arrested for exposure) i noticed. i look like a bag of bones. i look ill. my cheeks are actually sunken in. my hipbones and ribs are more obvious than my boobs. my collarbones protrude far enough to hook a coat hanger on. i actually felt a bit sick, because i feel so breakable. like one of my bones could shatter from a knock or a jar. my skin is patchy, i have an eye infection, my veins in my arms pop out like grey earthworms, my teeth are chipped and yellowed. all in all, standing under the yellow tinted fluorescent hell lighting, shivering in my too-big underwear, wasn’t a good look for me.

i looked like i am pretty close to dying.

what i found really interesting about this is that it looks like she actually saw herself in real life, not as still-too-fat as so many anorexic women do. a small victory, perhaps?

read the whole article on women’s changing rooms here

food and the sound of silence
laura collins, who was so good and hosted the carnival of eating disorders last month muses on the question of what to talk about when not talking about food and eating. what would happen if these topics were taken out of the conversation anywhere and everywhere?

well, a marvellous silence would blanket the land, certainly. there’d be a lot more eye contact, i think. the TV and radio channels would be silent much of the day and night without talk shows and news spots and commercials selling dieting and the necessity of altering our appearance. parties would be odd for a while, but we’d adjust. class reunions… well, no one would go any more because the whole point was to compare notes on aging and diets.

here is the rest of the post.

exercise: fit and fat
carrie arnold (who, incidentally, was the person who first asked the question of what to talk about if not about food) is the owner of one of the best blogs on eating disorders. check it out. her new blog header is really cool. she points out that you can be fit and fat.

a study found that half of adults classified as “overweight” and one third of adults classified as “obese” were metabolically healthy. one in four of “normal weight” adults were not.

exercise and weight loss
pretty much a companion article to the one above is dr. martin russell’s exercise for weight loss. hold on to your seats, i won’t reveal the story. read it for yourself.

that’s it for october! i really enjoyed all these posts and encourage you to go on and read them all. do you have, or do you know, a post that would be a good addition to this carnival? if so, please submit it here or drop me a line, and we can enjoy it next month, at the carnival of eating disorders on november 30.

11 thoughts on “carnival of eating disorders on hallowe’en

  1. ClinicallyClueless

    My therapy session last Fridaywas intense. Although it my eating disorder has been an obvious issue, in the almost 22 years that I’ve known my therapist it was the one area that I would not allow him to touch. I’d become defensive or refuse to talk. But, for some reason, I initiated the conversation last Friday. And it was a discussion and non-defensive. I cried quite a bit, and I usually don’t cry at all even when I need or want to. I actually admitted that I have an eating disorder.

    For more than 30 years, I thought I had control, didn’t have to ever talk about it and could handle it on my own. I can’t. I feel better when I share it with my therapist. I am scared. Everything felt surreal afterward.

    Although my I am overweight now because of the side effects of my medications, I am in a panic because I need to lose weight, but don’t really think I can without starving. Even when my weight has been okay, the thought patterns and behavior have been there everyday. (Crying now.)

    I didn’t think I was in trouble when my 5’4″ body was at 97 pounds (twice). All I could think of was getting to 95, then 90…there was no end.

    I am so ambivalent about talking to my therapist who is the only one that I’ve ever talk to about it. About whether it really is a problem (which is just acting out my ambivalence and denial). I’m ambivalent about letting go of it or not. 30 years is a long time.

    Sorry to go on so, but I am both compelled right now to read blogs about eating disorder and terrified because I know the thought patterns and games. I want to pretend that I’m okay again and it feels good not to feel so alone and to let my therapist into the one area that I have so heavily protected from him for more than 20 years. Yes, we talked about it, but it was never productive. Now, I just feel relieve to allow him in.

    Again, I’m sorry to go on so.

    CC

    ClinicallyClueless’s last blog post..PAST JOURNAL ENTRY ~ November 2-6, 2005 ~ On Vacation

  2. isabella mori

    hi cc – please, absolutely no reason to apologize for “going on” – to the contrary. thank you for letting us participate in your life. i’m glad that here on the internet at least you feel somewhat ok talking about this situation.

    and thanks for the segue. boy, i must have been VERY turmoiled 🙂 actually, when i came home i couldn’t wait to get into less crazy clothes. still wearing the hat though 🙂

  3. Lola Snow

    I’m jumping on the bandwagon, and saying: that is an awesome fluffy boa! It reminds me of one my brother had at his house for ages. Whenever we had a visitor, we would make them put on the boa and have a polaroid picture taken. One wall was dedictaed to the Boa Photo Photos. Very cool indeed.
    Great Carnival Isabella, I’m trying to round up a posse of contributors for the next one!

    Lola x

    Lola Snow’s last blog post..Nosey Parkers and Weepy Weekends

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  5. mazapoint

    the revealing occurred in the middle of the river island dynamical rooms. i reliable on nine or ten opposite outfits, on the exam twain of jeans

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